Thoughts can only be heard if they are spoken. If there was one area where I think I need to grow as a person it is to is to express my ideas that I have in the classroom and also further on in life. The one thing that all reports from teachers have had is that I need to speak more and although I have tried throughout my six years at Fenn to do this I hope to continue to improve this area.
As I sit here in this classroom during this English exam and look back at my six years at Fenn and look at the countless classes with class discussion and all the times the teachers have told me I need to talk more in class. Thinking back on classes where I had an opportunity that I did not take,
It seems like any other day at school, I wake up at the same thing time, I go to advisor at the same time and I go to my first class like any other day. Although I am feeling a little tired today I walk over to the farmhouse for Global class and as I walked into the room I realized we had a class discussion today instead taking the opportunity I watched it pass away.
There have been many opportunities I have seen pass away and I look back at those memories with regret. Even though my thoughts may not always be the most insightful I hope to still express them. I hope not to be more outspoken in only classes I also hope be outspoken outside the classroom and in the rest of my life.
Although I hope not to be the loudest person in every room I am in, I hope to be at least a little more outspoken in hope to be the person I want to be in life.
"A closed mouth gathers no Feet"~ John Fitzsimmons
Through all parts of life wisdom can be Gaines . There is many things that I would tell new fourth graders that are entering Fenn . I have gained wisdom from Many experiences at Fenn and Fenn gives many opportunities for students to gain wisdom.
One piece of advice I would give to the fourth grade would be to take all of the opportunities that are available. Some of my best memories at Fenn have been a product of opportunities at Fenn. I would also give that advice to take opportunities that may even be outside your comfort zone. One of my regrets has been not taking opportunities that are outside my comfort zone such as public speaking. I did not do to much public speaking until my ninth grade year when I was forced to for my senior reflection. I remember my senior reflection was an experience that I was able to learn a lot from. I would encourage fourth graders to attempt public speaking and any other opportunities that may seem uncomfortable to them because no matter what you do you'll be welcomed by the community. Although the risks may seem scary there is no better place to try then at Fenn. I also remember in ninth grade was at camp caribou was that many opportunities that it held, and although the high ropes course may have seemed scary it was and opportunities that I was happy I took. Another experience that I learned from was when I was struggling in a class although at the time it seemed like an experience that I would soon forget I was able to learn from it. I would encourage fourth graders that when they struggle in a class to turn it into a positive memory by not giving up and turning that struggles into success.
Although I did not take evert opportunity at Fenn and I still have some regrets about not taking opportunities I was able to learn from every opportunity at Fenn, and I would encourage every fourth grader to take all of the opportunities that are given.
There are many challenges that I have faced that have tested my limits and made me who I am today. Many of these challenges I have faced at my time at Fenn wether it is in the classroom, the sports field or on a class trip. These challenges at Fenn have made me who I am today and have brought me memories that I will remember for a long time.
An experience that challenged me and brought me out of my comfort zone was the Camp Caribou trip. There was many experiences that I was able to learn from at camp Caribou wether I was outside my comfort zone on the high ropes course or watching someone go outside there comfort zone on the high ropes course. Another experienced that challenged me and brought me out of my comfort zone was my senior reflection. I had never done public speaking before in front of so many people for a long amount of time. My senior reflection had been delayed a few times already due to snow days but when the day finally arrived and I stepped out of the car on a chilly morning. Through the first period I was nervous and I couldn't concentrate and when it was time to go to all school meeting. I walked into the empty all school meeting with sweaty palms. I kept on telling myself that it would only last a few minutes. I remember stepping onto the stage and instead feeling more nervous I felt a certain calmness. Once the reflection ended a huge sigh of relief went through me. Although this experience at the time seemed awful it was experience that helped me expand my comfort zone and gain more confidence in public speaking.
There are many different places at Fenn where a person can go outside here comfort zone and Fenn offers many opportunities for students to go outside their comfort zone and challenge themselves. I have been challenged many times at Fenn and although the thought of going outside my comfort zone isn't alway the most fun it is always an experience that is rewarding and a experience that you can learn from.
A home is not just where you sleep at night it is where you spend your time. I have spent much of the last six years of my life at Fenn and there is no other place beside my home that I have spent more time. I have spent hundreds of hours in the classrooms, the hallways, the gym and the fields and each has memories that I will remember.
There are many places where I feel at home at Fenn. I feel at home in the classroom or in the advisor. Although when I first arrived at Fenn it did not feel like a home and just felt like a school that I went to from eight in the morning to three in the afternoon. Over time though as I spent more time in the classrooms and in the rest of Fenn it became to feel like more of home. The countless memories that I have from Fenn has made it a home. The fields of Fenn have felt like home because of the hours of practice and games that I have spent on them, or time just spent there during free time, the classroom have felt like home because of the hundreds of hours spent in them wether it's bad memories of time in a classroom while working on a test or good memories of time spent with classmates but home can also have good and memories that it holds.
Home can be anywhere that you want it to be and it can mean anything that you want it to mean. Home can have positive memories and home can also have negative memories but either way home is a place where you can grow.
Wherever you go in life the people you spend time with will shape you as a person weather it is in a good way or bad way. There are many people who have shaped me at my time at Fenn. There is no other place where I have spent more time beside my house. The thousands of hours that I have spent at Fenn have been filled with time spent with students and teachers. Fenn has an environment which allows that students to be shaped by the community and to discover themselves. I am a far different person then the first day that I stepped into the white buildings of Fenn and much of it is due to Fenn.
Every teacher, coach and advisor at Fenn has shaped me weather they have shaped me as a student or as a citizen. They have all taught the countless lessons of there subject but buy they have also taught me countless lessons on how to be a good person of citizen. I have been shaped by the many people at Fenn every day from the first day at Fenn all the way to the last.
I remember the first day of Fenn being nervous and not knowing what to expect. I have been shaped by many people at Fenn but no more then the first teacher I ever had at Fenn. Although I was nervous for the first day at Fenn I remember feeling welcome in the classroom where I would spend the next to years. In Ms. Waldeck's class I remember being welcome and feeling comfortable after just a few weeks. I would spend the next two years in that class and I can remember countless memories from that class especially the times reading books as a class. During those two years I was shaped a lot as a person, I was able to gain confidence especially in reading and writing and as a person I learned more then about myself and myself a student in the those two years more then any other two years.
Over my time at Fenn I have been shaped by many people at Fenn teachers, coaches, advisors and the students. The people that you spend time with are the people who shape you and the people that I have spent time with at Fenn have shaped me perhaps more then any other place.
I have spent a large portion of my childhood at The Fenn School for boys so I have many fond memories and also some memories that I am less fond of, and from those memories I have learned. I have learned a good amount of what I know today due to Fenn. The lessons I have learned started the first day on the first day of school in fourth grade and won't end till the day I graduate. I can say that I have that I have learned at least one fact every day that I have been at Fenn although I will probably not remember even close to half of it. I have learned positive lessons negative lessons and everything in between the two.
I remember the first day at Fenn I wake earlier then normal on a humid fall morning but this day is unlike any other and it could turn out to be one of the biggest days of my young life. I threw a collared shirt, that I have not yet gotten used to wearing, stepped into some pale colored khakis. I ate a quick bite of breakfast but I did not feel overly hungry. I hopped in the car not saying much to anyone after the short drive to Fenn that felt like eternity. I slowly walked away from the car and towards the big white buildings. That day almost more then any other day was a day where I was learned lessons that I would learn more in depth about for the next six years. I learned about independence and and the the two words that I would here just as any other two words at Fenn 'Sua Sponte'. The lesson that could be found anywhere at Fenn 'It's in your Hands' became more evident as I grew older.
The many memories of Fenn has taught me many lessons and mi have gotten a lot from Fenn. I have learned responsibility I have learned honesty and I have learned that it's in my hands.
Tradition is a comfort to fight change, In the short story "The Lottery" by Shirley Jackson, Jackson tells a story of a town that seems like any other town with its own unique tradition. Although they have many traditions that are similar to a normal town in modern day society there is one tradition that is far from any other, the ritual of The Lottery that is held every year. The Lottery has been a tradition that is starting to become less and less popular in the society especially in neighboring towns but the people in this one town are holding on to this tradition dear because of their greatest fear, change. "The Lottery" chooses a person to get killed by the fellow members of the town to a death not due to just to a single person but to a every member of the town even the youngest. While the Lottery is occurring to men of the town are talking one being Old Man Warner who is a strong believer in the tradition of the lottery him being the oldest man in the town.
Over in the north village they're talking of giving up the lottery. Old Man Warner snorted. 'Pack of crazy fools,' he said. 'Listening to the young folks, nothing's good enough for them. Next thing you know, they'll be wanting to go back to living in caves, nobody work any more, live hat way for a while.....There's always been a lottery,'
"Shirley Jackson’s 'The Lottery' shows humanity’s blind acceptance of tradition." (Aaron Downs.) This tradition has continued for such a long time is because of the fact that the children are taught at a young age about this tradition and why it must continue and because of town members like Old Man Warner who could not see this town without this tradition. A final reason for the denial to end this tradition is because of the town members fear of change even if it is as small as the change in the box which the name is drawn out of.
Despite the cruelty of the tradition "The Lottery" many people in the town which Shirley Jackson describes cling to the tradition due to their great fear of change
The wind slammed
The waves thundered
The rain Pummeled
The sky covered in dark Clouds
The sand damp with rain
I could no longer stand Pushed further back and back
The beach lay empty
No person in sight
Not even a Seagull
Yet I could not be